I must be insane. (Photo by Colton Jones on Unsplash)
I’ve just given up a permanent job and started my own business. I’ve deliberately chosen insecurity over security.
I don’t have a secret stash of money hidden under a mattress nor a rich husband, my savings will get us out of trouble should our washing machine break, but there’s definitely not enough to keep us in bread and butter for very long.
By “us”, by the way, I mean me and my constantly growing and eternally hungry teenage son.
It could well happen that soon, very soon, we’ll be out of money, out of food, and living in a cardboard box.
So here I am, ruining not only my own life but also a life of an innocent boy.
I must be insane.
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That’s me on a bad day.
On a good day I find myself thinking that finally – finally! – I grew brave enough to become my own boss and claim the freedom that I had dreamt of for such a long time. That finally I grew old enough to have gained sufficient wisdom and confidence to believe that I will have what it takes to make it.
Nothing is under control anyway.
When I say “make it”, I don’t mean becoming insanely rich or successful or famous. “Making it” to me means being able to live a life where I can do what I want to do, learn what I want to learn, and challenge myself in ways that I want to challenge myself. And while at it, earn enough to feed my family and make sure that I’ll always have a decent pair of boots for walking.
There are bad days, there are good days, and there are the very best days.
What is it that I think about on my very best days? On my very best days I think that I’ve learned the most beautiful thing there is to learn: that sometimes you can just jump and trust that you’ll fly. Nothing is under control anyway.
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You’ve just read my first blog post as a new entrepreneur. My first baby step on an untrodden path. My plan is to carry on writing about my entrepreneur’s journey for at least a hundred days, hopefully every day though not making promises. I’m confident that there will be some pretty terrible days ahead, too, but it’s ok. That’s what life is like, isn’t it – a wonderful mess.
PS: What exactly is it then that I do, you might wonder. I’d like to think of myself as your friendly and creative all-around communications partner. I write in Finnish and in English, I take photos, and I make podcasts. I’ll also be more than happy talk about human interaction and the importance of interpersonal communications skills at your event. I also enjoy putting together websites for small businesses and help them out with their social media activities.
So, if you need a wordsmith-photographer of many skills for your external and internal communication or content marketing and native advertising needs, or a speaker with a mission to promote mutual understanding between people, I’m your person – and this is where you’ll find me.